I am at that point today where I feel like I should just cry, and maybe that would be best. Today was exhausting and yet there are things I still need to work on for my classes so I don’t fall behind. I can’t help but feel like I just want to disconnect for a few hours and then go to bed.

Although some both fun and funny things happened today in the studio, the session went too long and was tiring. I didn’t sleep enough for my needs last night and the night prior, so I was tired once I arrived to school. When the studio session was over and everything put away, I felt like going home even though I still needed to make a silver gelatin print for a competition I am want to enter before the deadline on Wednesday.

Well on top of the exhaustion, my negatives were not as sharp as I hoped them to be. I screwed up on the technical side of capturing my images even though they had the emotion and feeling I wanted. I have to accept that my work is less than my demanding standards and either submit or not: I have no time to reshoot. I am not even sure my last print today was the best I could make, but I had no more time left to print this afternoon.

In addition to this, my mind has been fixated on a relationship problem that I just want to forget about but can’t seem to detach from. I am have just been so angry about the situation and what happened that I couldn’t take keeping it inside anymore and finally said something about it via text message. But admittedly, what I said probably won’t bring resolve and may have just indicated anger more than a desire to fix the situation.

I probably should just get some sleep: go to bed early and get up early to work on one of those approximately fifteen poems I want to finish. Thank you if you read all of this.

Good night.