Often as a writer I pour over whether what I am writing is something that should command any attention. I reach out for the ethereal words to grasp them from the semi-opaque vapors in my mind that pass for thoughts, trying earnestly to say something significant. It is nearly inexpressible how I often feel that this is an exercise in futility: I can never say it well enough. It will fail, I fear… I believe. I even wrote an untitled poem back in early March that I posted on my personal Instagram (@prramer) that spoke to this feeling of inevitable failure at words.
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Alone
ScratchpadPresent, living, seeing
Citizen but stranger
Unknown, insignificant
As I Am
ScratchpadIt is gentle, soft, and white
And tender, vulnerable, and pink
Full of uncertainty but comfortable
I ask for nothing, expecting nothing
Yet there may be a home here for my soul
My heart is thankful for small gestures
I don’t know when I have ever felt so welcome
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Spinning Out
ScratchpadSpinning
Spinning ’round
The earth, my head
It just won’t stop
Stay put; let me collect myself
Where are you?
I thought it was supposed to be different
That we were different
Who am I supposed to be?
It’s just no good
We’re just spinning
Spinning out of control
Something Beautiful
ScratchpadA yearning to fulfill
And a longing to create
Desiring to satisfy this want
Overlooked
ScratchpadThis is what I feared would happen
And didn’t want to happen
But did happen
I allowed myself to see possibilities
To develop feelings and grow attached
But the possibility was snatched
And fate rudely substituted
Heartache for my hope
And tears for my happiness
I will confess
I want … Continue reading
Dear Poetry
ScratchpadTo you I come once more
To whisper in your ear my secrets
And disclose my intimate thoughts
My diary is neglected
Because to you I confess
My darkest feelings and expose
My truest fears
I have only known you a short while
But you know the most
When my … Continue reading